Not alone

The past couple months have been challenging ones. Filled with good along with discouragement, change in relationships and some pain. But that’s how life goes, we have ups and downs.

Now I’m not trying to complain. I know that God works through challenges and that I’m growing in this time.

But I didn’t really understand what God was doing and a feeling of emptiness and loneliness grew heavier over the past two weeks.

This past Sunday at a worship night I experienced something that struck with me into the rest of the week. During worship I was given a picture; of a little girl walking through a field. The path that she was walking soon became difficult to see and the ones traveling with her strayed. She continued to walk, alone. Tears welled up in my eyes. I felt like the little girl. Walking on a path that was made for me, but I was alone. That image stuck with me all week.

More challenges and frustration presented themselves over this week. This morning I woke up with a list of things I needed to do. So I got started with my day, planning to do my normal routine.

But God knew that I needed something different. After a conversation with my mom, I made the decision to go to the mountains for the day. I had this craving to get away. To leave all the distractions, drama, and stress. I needed to get away to have some one-on-one time with God. Time to let go, breathe, listen, and recharge.

The whole drive up, I listened to worship music. God did something on that drive. There were a lot of tears, burdens being lifted, and brokenness being repaired. Once I parked at the top of a mountain, I continued my worship time and conversation with Jesus. It was so good. Looking at God’s beauty, sitting in the sun, listening for his voice, breathing and recharging.

During this time I saw the girl in the field again. But she wasn’t alone. A fatherly figure walked with her. I was reminded that I’m not alone. People will come and go. Challenges will appear. But God will always walk with me, hold me, guide me, and love me.  It hard to put into words all the feelings. But this is a growing season and I’m moving forward not alone. God’s with you always. Just breathe